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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:02

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was scared of men, in general

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

I couldn’t, believe it.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Do you anal play alone?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I write beautiful poetry .

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Would this be the day?

How did you cope when someone you love, dealing with hyper-independence and trauma, felt they needed space to heal alone? Were you able to support them without overstepping, and did you eventually reconnect? How did that journey unfold?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was 9 years of age.

We were not on the streets..

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I think the readers, may guess!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She found it foreign!.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

So whats the point in blame.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Comes on , in middle age.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I had hoped to write a book about this .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im still living with it.

I was very sick at this time too.

He resisted the act ,that day.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My family never makes their pension either.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

This is soul school!.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She wouldn,t have been !

Who then, do I blame.?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Ive learnt so much.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She was in good health!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My life is so biszare .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I don,t even have a pension.

Put me off passion for life!!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He knew the spot.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Why did i forgive my father ?

I never cut or harmed myself..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was seconnd youngest,

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

All the time i was locked up.

She married twice! .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

She loved him until the end.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Was to survive, this bastard.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I waited trembling.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

One cannot live in the past .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But, we were locked up after school.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But it wasn’t much.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I have no regrets .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I will be 64.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

So, i spoilt her more .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And i lived it daily.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

What did i know ?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I said to her

When she asked me how she looked .

It was going to be , some day.

We all went to grammer schools

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!